Because it was so difficult to do anything except to get through the day, I stopped doing everything I did not have to do. So, obviously, my BLOG went by the wayside as did my monthly email newsletter. It was very challenging to stay positive during those two years and I did not want to share my misery. My theory is when in doubt do nothing. I think I got that from Oprah.
As always, time flew along and as the pain worsened, I realized I was going to have to do something about it. I finally had the surgery on April 20, 2017. I developed a hematoma about two weeks after the surgery. This is a painful solid swelling of clotted blood within the tissues. I won't go into detail but I will say it was the worst six weeks of my life. Flash forward to July. Today, I have much less pain and my happy optimistic self is returning.
As many of you creators know, your art reflects your state of mind and there is no escaping that. It is a powerful tool to use to release, enhance, lift, express and receive emotions. I was unwilling to allow myself to paint during this time. I felt that I would surely make a bad painting, and that would only make me feel worse. So I did not paint, I cooked instead.
Cooking became a safe place for me. I had never really paid much attention to it, but suddenly, I was really enjoying this creative outlet. I must also confess that I became a Food Network junkie. I even planted a new herb garden in the planter box near my front door. I embraced the parallels of painting and cooking. I enjoyed considering the colors, textures and compositions of my food creations. I realized that the art of cooking is the only art that engages all five senses. Think about it...you can't taste a painting or smell it. I fell in love with cooking. It also became a tool for healing and nurturing myself through a difficult time. I found a lot of joy and comfort in my accomplishments as I mastered my favorite Italian dishes.
So, the point I am making here is that when you need to create and you are not up to expressing yourself in your usual fashion, by all means choose another artistic expression and embrace all that it has to offer. Appreciate the parallels you may draw between the two different arts and revel in your new creative outlet. You just might surprise yourself into finding a brand new passion!!